We Are Fearfully & Wonderfully Made

Psalm 139:14

"I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well."

I am fearfully and wonderfully made. This verse came to me as I relaxed at the end of the day. But, as I wrote it down I thought, "I am fearfully and wonderfully made…those two things don't seem to be in agreement. Further, my wounds screamed loudly,"even God was fearful of making you because of what you are!"Wow. I refused to believe the lie, could the attack on this woman's heart really be that easy? As I looked up the Hebrew meaning for "fearfully", there it was-- an awe of reverence, standing in awe at the beauty of something. Amazing. God made me and was in awe. Not because of my sins, not because of my waywardness, He was in awe because of what He created in me. He marveled at me. And wonderfully, well that means I'm fabulous, marvelous and yes wonderfully made. Why is it then it seems to be easier to focus on the lies about ourselves. Yes, admittedly and honestly, there are times we have failed. But, do we stay there? Does the failure handcuffs and keep us? Does it make us prisoners of the offense? Do we allow Holy Spirit to come and convict us and then bid us return? The Hebrew word for return in this context is t'shuva. We return to who we were meant to be. In Genesis it says we are made in God's image. There are truths about us because of who God is. Just as we resemble our earthly parents in certain ways, we have our eternal Father's imprints on us too. He blessed us with gifts to reflect who He is. The original us is amazing. The problem is we have a hard time believing it. For one reason or another, we fail to trust God so We begin searching for an identity when we already have one. We allow ourselves to be lost in the kaleidoscope of people we meet, people who influence us, and even excitement of movies and the fables of fairytales. We seek ourselves and yet there is already someone in us, the someone we were meant to be. Our original. Why would we settle for only second best when the first version of us, the intended version of us is perfect. For we are fearfully and wonderfully made.